Editors Note: Like the rest of the country, I have been deeply affected by the massacre in Orlando. The following is my letter to the killer if he was alive today.
Congratulations on your newfound fame and notoriety. It’s official — you have past the previous records of mass shootings and are now the person with the highest body count — 49 innocent lives. Yeah, I know they were all faggots to you. You think you knew what these people were all about, but in reality you new nothing about them other than that they deserved to die for their “horrible” lifestyle. I bet you never knew a gay person.
How could someone who has a son of his own commit such an evil and heinous crime? Don’t you realize that the people you killed had families too — brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, partners, children, grandparents and friends? They were people who were going to school, working jobs and trying to make a way in the world, just like you were.
Who made you God? What makes you better than the rest of us? Did you have a direct connection to Allah? Did he tell you via a cosmic phone call or text to go and kill a bunch of LGBT people in Orlando?
From reports that are surfacing, you seemed to enjoy the nightlife yourself. You often visited nightclubs and enjoyed partying. The people at the Pulse were just letting off some steam and having a fun evening — like people do when they go to a nightclub. Laughing, dancing, drinking — they weren’t protesting or making some kind of political statement. They just wanted to have a good time. Who are you to say what someone else’s good time is comprised of?
And don’t get me started on the possibility that you were actually a closeted gay man. If that is the case, you should have gone to therapy. You would have found out that people can and do lead healthy and productive lives as LGBT persons. That whatever was written in the Koran, was written so long ago they had no clue to the reality of being gay. Most LGBT people I know believe they were born this way. Sure you may have had issues with your family, but I do believe you would have gotten past them in time.
As for the anger issues, well again, I would recommend some therapy and some possible prescription drugs too. How you reacted to being offended to seeing 2 guys kiss is not a normal reaction. It is obvious that you are a mentally deranged individual. I would like to believe that you could have gotten past things and lived a normal life.
Having a normal life is not something your victims will get to do. Who knows what they might have achieved? They could have had the cure for cancer or been a future President of the USA. Those that did live (and there are 5 still in critical condition, so your total may still rise) are going to have a long hard road back to recovery. We are talking huge medical expenses, rehabilitation, plastic surgery, prosthetics and more. Not to mention the intense trauma they endured that will result in years of psychotherapy. These people have been through hell, and you are the one responsible for it.
I get that religion is important to you. It is important to me too. I love that I get to connect to God and my spiritual community. One of the tenants of my faith is that we are all people of God — regardless of race, religion, sexuality or nationality. I don’t have to agree with or like everyone in the world. We are different, and I am OK with that. If I see something wrong in the world, I will pray about it. If I feel so, I will write my politicians and tell them how I feel. Try to get laws or protections passed. I would never take matters into my own hands and be judge and jury myself. But again, that is something we feel differently about.
Did you expect to see all the outpourings of love around the world? I bet not. Sure there are those haters who agree with what you did and see it as an act of God. But those people are in the minority. There have been rallies and vigils all over the world for your victims. Politicians, law enforcement, ministers, celebrities along with millions and millions of regular people who want to celebrate and remember the people you killed. Your victims were people who most of us have never met, yet we have cried so many tears about them.
In the end love will always win. I guess you know that now too since you are dead. You can never hug your son again. You will never see your wife again. Never talk to or interact with your parents. Every year on June 12, we will read aloud the names of the fallen to remember them and celebrate their lives. Your name will soon be forgotten. A small footnote in time.
I pray for you and your family. Something that you probably wouldn’t do for me. But again, that’s the type of person I am.
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