2018 has been an interesting year for me. There have been a lot of successes, and a number of challenges too. My husband and I celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary this past August — and it will be 30 years together in January 2019.
Work is going well. I am taking on more responsibilities, but at the same time I am experiencing more scrutiny.
The craziness coming out of DC these days is mind-blowing. Trump is everything I thought he would be and more. As far as I am concerned the current administration has had zero days without a scandal. The sad thing is that I have Trump voters in my family. What did they see in this man? Romney and McCain I could see something good about them — not so with the Donald.
My husband has refused to be around my family since the election. And truth is, I can see why. He’s not related to them, whereas I am — and always will be. I know they are good people — but why did they vote for this fool? Knowing that by doing so, they would be hurting my family. That by voting for a hateful man, I question how much they are really like him. Are they in white supremist organizations? Do they say they love me, but really want to see me suffer?
On Father’s Day I felt like I was in some sort of alternate right-wing Twilight-Zone episode. I learned my Dad is promoting an event for the Knights of Columbus for “traditional marriage.” Yet, he has a gay son and never thought about how this would be upsetting for me? Then he and my brother made racist comments about Latinos while we were hanging out with my Dad’s caregiver, who happens to be Latino. My Dad’s views are one of white/straight privilege to the nth degree. Then my brother gives my Dad another pro-Trump book too. That day was a nightmare.
Yes, I am getting older. I accept that fact. I am healthy and thank God for my many blessings. So far my main complaint is arthritis in my hands and feet.
Will we ever have a house? I don’t know. All I know is that everything is expensive. Groceries, gas, utilities and rent all keep going up and up. Meanwhile my wages stay pretty flat. It is hard to make ends meet sometimes.
I have been experiencing more loneliness lately. Sure, I have my husband — he is my best friend. But it would be nice to have a few other close friends. People who cared about me, and wanted to spend time and talk to me. Everyone seems so busy — and people like the casualness of Facebook. I am shy so that doesn’t help. I tried a new site called “Friend Match” — and it has brought me nothing after about 2 months. I will try my best to be hopeful about the situation. I am not sure you can go after friends the way you go after jobs.
This is my truth — at this particular moment in my life. I hope that you live your life openly and honestly. And that you have found your place in this crazy world.
KiltManinSoCal is a Los Angeles-based writer and designer. Be sure to check out the latest T-Shirts for sale here, including Marriage Equality and Real Men Wear Kilts lines. They make great gifts for friends, family and loved ones.