This week’s topic deals with suicide and depression. In the past month, Don Cornelius and Roman Ragazzi committed suicide. Sad in both cases.
I have been depressed — we all have. Those days when you don’t feel like getting out of bed or moving at all. Those days when you feel like the whole world is against you and that nobody cares about you. Thankfully it is never been that bad for me — if my day sucks, there is always tomorrow.
I remember when there used to be those afterschool specials on TV… the ones that dealt with difficult topics like divorce or suicide even. I remember the suicide one. It is easy to say that is the answer to your problems. But the truth is, it affects many more people than just the person doing it.
Two of my coworkers have killed themselves in the 6 years I have worked there. One I barely knew, he did it over the New Year’s holiday. He seemed like a nice, quiet, good-looking guy… why did he kill himself? The other was a very outgoing, fun guy that everyone loved. He was the type who was the life of the party. He had a wife and 2 kids and yet he killed himself too.
I am also aware or 2 others. Another friend who killed himself — I wonder if it was over HIV status. The other killed himself with drugs. Both were nice people. But they had demons they couldn’t shake and are not with us today because of them.
And now we have the suicides of young people in the news over them being bullied for who they are. I was bullied too, and I definitely thought about killing myself. Even when I didn’t love myself, I knew that God loved me.
I can only imagine a parent losing their child to suicide. The grief would be unbearable. Parents, siblings, children, grandparents, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, friends, acquaintances, coworkers, neighbors, even strangers — they would all be affected too. We are all part of the human race and these people are our brothers and sisters.
I wish I could have talked to the people I know that killed themselves. Give them a shoulder to lean on, someone they could unload on. Try to show them that life has it’s ups and downs, and it is worth living. And that they are important and special. If they went and did it anyway, at least I tried. But I was never given the chance.
RIP, Eli, Jeremy, Drew and Alan